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Marcus Urban was an East German football player who turned his back on the sport in order to live as an openly gay man. Urban told his story in the book “Versteckspieler: Die Geschichte des schwulen Fußballers Marcus Urban”, “Hidden Player: the story of the gay footballer Marcus Urban”.
Urban, pictured on the far left, began his career in 1978 when he joined East German club Motor Weimar at the age of seven. He moved to Rot-Weiss Erfurt in 1984, where he won a youth championship.
The midfielder’s reputation was growing and he was called up to the East German youth team in 1986. He made over 100 appearances for Rot-Weiss’ first team, but Urban felt burdened by his sexuality. “Constantly hearing gay used as a curse word like s**t, made me think, ‘Of course, I’m s**t,” Urban told CNN.

Urban’s form suffered and, following a stint with provincial club SC 1903 Weimar, he gave up on his dream of becoming a professional footballer. “I realized that if I became a professional footballer, I would suffer as a man,” he explained. “I chose freedom over a constructed prison.”

Since “coming out” Urban has been able to reignite his love for the beautiful game. He now consults with organizations, including football associations, on issues of diversity and integration. “There are certainly more boring lives than mine,” he said.
Former United States international Robbie Rogers attracted headlines by announcing himself as gay after retiring for football, aged just 25, earlier this year. Rogers was recently invited to train with Major League Soccer champions Los Angeles Galaxy.
Jason Collins, currently a free agent, made NBA history last month by becoming the first male athlete in a major North American sport to come out as gay.

Urban believes rugby player Gareth Thomas set the perfect example for athletes wishing to “come out”. “He proceeded in stages,” Urban said of the Welshman who publicly revealed his sexuality in 2009. “First he outed himself to his wife. Then he told his coach and then two players. After each step he received positive feedback.”

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(CNN) — Four walls, a bed and a slop bowl. If prison represents physical confinement and a loss of every personal freedom, what does imprisonment of the mind feel like?
“Unbearable” according to Marcus Urban, a German footballer who gave up his chosen profession — his “first love” — because of homophobia in the game.
In a sport infamous for macho bravado on the pitch and anti-gay chants in the terraces, Urban was battling an unspeakable shame.
A promising talent, Urban in his youth played alongside and against future German national team stars Robert Enke, Bernd Schneider and Thomas Linke.
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The former United States and Leeds United striker Robbie Rogers used his website to announce he was gay earlier in 2013 — but then promptly retired from football at the tender age of 25.
Talented England striker Justin Fashanu was the first footballer to come out during his playing career, but he could not live with the scars of his revelation. He committed suicide in 1998.
Former NBA player John Amaechi, who was raised in Britain, broke barriers as the first professional basketball player to announce he was gay in 2007. He made the revelations in his autobiography after retiring from the game.
Jason Collins of the Washington Wizards became the first active NBA player to announce that he is gay on April 29, 2013.
Sport’s biggest lesbian star is 18-time grand slam tennis champion Martina Navratilova who announced she was gay shortly after gaining U.S. citizenship in 1981. Her revelation came at the beginning of her career and she went on to win many more titles.
American four-time Olympic gold medallist Greg Louganis came out as gay when he was diagnosed with HIV in 1988. He told CNN’s Piers Morgan in 2012 he believes in “equal rights for everybody.”
Former Wales rugby union captain Gareth Thomas described the conflict between his sport and his sexuality when he came out in 2009, telling the Daily Mail newspaper: “It is barbaric. I could never have come out without first establishing myself and earning respect as a player.”

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Sheryl Swoopes, a retired WNBA star and coach of the Loyola University Chicago’s women’s basketball team, came out in 2005.
Brittney Griner, selected No. 1 in the 2013 WNBA draft by the Phoenix Mercury, is openly gay.
In an exclusive interview with CNN, former San Francisco 49ers player Kwame Harris came out as gay after rumors circulated in the media.
U.S. international soccer player Robbie Rogers, formerly of the Columbus Crew, announced that he was gay and retired in February.
Gareth Thomas of Wales spoke about being gay to a British news channel in 2009.
Justin Fashanu became the first openly gay soccer player in Europe when he came out in 1990. Eight years later, he took his own life.
Tennis great Martina Navratilova came out in 1981.
After his retirement in 2007, basketball player John Amaechi announced he was gay.
After retiring from professional football in 1972, David Kopay acknowledged to the Washington Star that he was gay.
Villanova University’s Will Sheridan came out to his teammates in 2003.
In 2012, U.S. women’s soccer player Megan Rapinoe confirmed in Out magazine that she was a lesbian.
Champion figure skater Johnny Weir confirmed in his 2011 memoir, “Welcome to My World,” that he was gay.
Australia’s Matthew Mitcham came out in an interview with the Sydney Morning Herald in 2008.
In 2012, Orlando Cruz became the first active professional fighter to publicly announce that he was gay. Editor’s note: A previously published photo in this space erroneously identified a different person as Orlando Cruz. CNN apologizes for the error.
Openly gay British dressage rider Carl Hester helped his team win gold at the 2012 Olympics.
Cricketer Steven Davies, of Surrey in England, announced he was gay in 2011.
Germany’s openly gay Judith Arndt won the silver medal in cycling at the 2012 Olympics.
Billy Bean, a former Major League Baseball player, discussed being gay in a 1999 New York Times article. Editor’s note: A previously published photo in this space erroneously identified a different person as Billy Bean. CNN apologizes for the error.
Tennis legend Billie Jean King was outed by a former female partner in 1981.
In 2002, professional football player Esera Tuaolo came out on HBO’s “Real Sports.”
French tennis player Amelie Mauresmo came out in 1999.
Greg Louganis, who won four Olympic golds for the U.S. over his diving career, has been openly gay since 1995.

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Photos: Openly gay athletes
“To play soccer basically means to rejoice in life,” Urban told CNN. “I never stopped playing football. It has always been my first love and it will remain forever.”
But, as is the case with so many first loves, Urban’s left him with a heartbreak which was almost too much to bear.
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The young midfielder, born and raised in East Germany in the 1970s and 80s in the days before reunification with West Germany in 1990, dreamed of representing his country — but he was living an exhausting double life.
On the surface he was a rising football star, but beneath he was a man coming to terms with his homosexuality.
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“I hid 24 hours a day, I adjusted,” explained Urban, who was terrified of being “outed” in a sport which today has just one openly gay professional player in Europe.
“It was an almost unbearable pain, a great sacrifice, a painful price to pay to achieve my goal of becoming a professional footballer.
“Constantly hearing gay used as a curse word like s**t, made me think, ‘Of course, I’m s**t.’ I spent 50% of my energy trying to hide, so a maximum of 50% of my energy was available for football. It wasn’t fair.
“I kept thinking, ‘I cannot do this anymore, I don’t want to. What is going on?’ Nobody was there to help me.”
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Urban’s love affair with football began in 1978, when he joined East German club Motor Weimar at the age of seven before moving to Rot-Weiss Erfurt in 1984.

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He trained twice a day with his new team and looked capable of achieving his ambition of playing for the German national team, winning a youth championship with Rot-Weiss in 1985.
His reputation was growing and he was called up to East Germany’s youth team in 1986. Urban went on to make over 100 appearances for Rot-Weiss’ senior team in the German second division.
But rather than marking the start of his rise to the top of German football, Urban’s spell in Erfurt proved to be the peak of a career cut short by fear, insecurity and self-loathing.
“By my early 20s I was burned out,” he said.
“I realized that if I became a professional footballer, I would suffer as a man. I chose freedom over a constructed prison.
“Talent is not enough. You need the will, physical fitness, good luck and a tough mentality. But what if you hide 24 hours a day because you are gay?
“The fear and pain robbed me of my energy because I was constantly thinking of what to say, how to act so people might think I was heterosexual.”
When it became clear he was in the twilight of his playing career, Urban finally summoned the courage to open up to one of his teammates following a switch to provincial club SC 1903 Weimar in 1991.
“I told only one player, in Weimar at the end of my career — and precisely for this reason,” said Urban. “He found it interesting that I was gay, I was one of his best friends on the team.”
Compared to other areas of society, the football profession is statistically lacking in openly gay players.

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Former United States national team player Robbie Rogers recently announced he was gay on the same day he retired from the sport, while Sweden-based Anton Hysen is currently the only openly “out” player in Europe.
Justin Fashanu’s tragic story is the last time a top-flight player has been so open.
The Englishman committed suicide in 1998, aged 37 — just eight years after announcing that he was gay. He had become the first £1 million black player when he joined Nottingham Forest in 1981.
Speaking at a sports forum in Berlin last September, German chancellor Angela Merkel urged gay players to feel confident enough to “come out.”
Her comments came following an article in a German magazine in which an anonymous gay Bundesliga player said the fear of added media attention was the reason why he hadn’t announced his sexuality.
German second division team FC St. Pauli placed itself on the front line of football’s battle with homophobia during a match with Paderborn.
Fans of the club, formerly run by openly gay president Corny Littmann, staged a demonstration against discrimination which included brightly-colored posters and a banner reading, “Football is everything — even gay.”
Basketballer Jason Collins recently made history by becoming the first openly gay NBA player, while the NHL has drawn plaudits for its anti-homophobia work.
Fifteen years on from Fashanu’s suicide, with other sports such as rugby and basketball setting a precedent and with the NFL reportedly closer than ever to having a homosexual player, is the beautiful game ready for a high-profile gay star?
“Why not?” replied Urban. “It is a great opportunity for the football world to show now that it is ready. Associations and clubs can come out as ‘gay-friendly’. Then players, officials, coaches, referees and so many others will follow.

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“The effects of outings gay footballers will go far beyond football.”
After years of torment and secrecy, Urban’s coming out proved to be a turning point. With new-found confidence, he was able to pursue a life away from the football pitch.
Urban has told his story in the book “Hidden Player: The story of a gay footballer,” while he is also something of a life coach, consulting with organizations — including football associations — on issues of diversity and integration.
“I was so glad to finally be myself and I finally knew what the years of torment had been about,” he explained. “With the energy and force of liberation I went on the front foot, on the offensive.
“I work as a personal coach and diversity consultant. I work for organizations and I help them to appreciate the dimensions of age, ethnicity, gender, religion and even sexual orientations.”
With a wealth of personal and professional expertise on the subject of “coming out,” Urban is in a unique position to offer advice to any player in a similar situation to the one he found himself in two decades ago.
According to Urban, former Wales international rugby player Gareth Thomas — who told the world he was gay in 2009 — has set out the perfect blueprint for others to follow.
“He proceeded in stages,” Urban said of Thomas. “First he outed himself to his wife. Then he told his coach and then two players. After each step he received positive feedback.
“He was told by everyone that he was still the same person. This enabled him to increase his self-esteem until it was big enough to go public. He then got exceptionally positive feedback.”
An openly gay football star would be a turning point not just for the sport, declares Urban, but also for society as a whole.

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Football, he suggests, stretches into areas where attitudes towards homosexuality have so far proved difficult to change.
“Football is the only way to tackle this topic comprehensively,” he said. “Very many people are geared towards football role models on television.
“If world soccer stars accepted their homosexuality, young people would question having to be so rough and macho.
“The result would be a social change that goes far beyond football.”
Urban is now comfortable with his sexuality, but he is not impervious to the homophobic barbs he often overhears in general conversation.
“‘F****, f****t’, any negative way of calling someone gay,” replies Urban when asked which insults he hears. “I was constantly affected by insults. Although it is not said to me directly it concerns me, even today.”
“But today, with more self-esteem and confidence, I look at homophobia from the perspective of a personal coaches and diversity consultant. Sometimes I have to laugh about it too, because it’s stupid and ridiculous.”
Self-esteem and confidence have helped Urban to heal the wounds inflicted by his first love, football.
He is once more besotted with the sport, playing with and against gay-friendly teams from across the globe.
It might not be playing at a World Cup with the German national team, but Urban is now back on the pitch, this time with his head held high.

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“I really wanted to play for the men’s national team,” reflected Urban. “It makes me happy to have made something out of my experiences.
“For years I could never play football in the stadium. I saw the grass and could not stand being a spectator rather than being down playing on the pitch. I had regrets, I was sad and angry.
“After I came out I was so much more confident. I played football at university, in a team consisting predominantly of gay footballers against other gay teams from Paris, London or New York and Washington.
“Today, I play at a club in Hamburg, accepted by everyone and my teammates are proud of me, I think. It is a great experience to play football and to feel free, pure happiness.
“There are certainly more boring lives than mine.”
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